a missed may

i did. i missed may. totally. fully. complete fly by.

apologies, alongside a hearty namaste to you all!

my may daytime musings were complex and stressed and unfocused.

may teased me with dreams of spain, nepal, paris, australia, chicago...

i currently have no footing. i currently have no dirt in which to bloom forth.

i can feasibly pack my things and go. go!

just go...but to do what...to accomplish what...to flourish into what...

i was up very early in the city this month. early enough that Times Square

held an eerie resemblance to the movie "I AM LEGEND."

able to witness the bold yawn of the city,

swept up in street-meat onions and cart-coffee,

the routine of a couples parting on their separate paths to work

was a gem of genuine behavior.

and for new york, that's impressive.

the AM kisses were not thrust and rushed.

an extension of the night prior, a last taste, a small snuggle,

a new york nuzzle in the skin you surrendered in.

these couples genuinely displayed "love" and i saw it.

("love" love, because who knows if these people have been married for 7 years

or met at an 80's theme party last Wednesday. logistics on the side, they began

a day - this day - together.)

what they ate for breakfast or who cooked it, in whose shirt...

did they pack n' carry a handy travel toothbrush...

the nanny, was she on time today...

their laptop, did they plug it in overnight, or will they charge it at the office...

still wearing the purple leopard heels,

but accompanying a more casual newly-purchased Gap pencil skirt and cotton blouse...

i deeply "love" these couples.

i wish them all well.

i urge more slowness in life - my own included.

i urge more deliberate, thought out behavior.

i urge more tenderness with time and execution.

no one knows what is good for you, except you.

except, really, only you.

totally. fully. complete.

since i can't seem to make up my damn mind, as of late, i need to take it slow.

i need to yawn. i need to settle in. i need to focus. focus on, really, only me.

then, i can extend out...genuinely extend to others...deliberately give to them.

namaste. keep it slow.